Hello, 30.

I anticipated my 30s to be much different than this growing up.

I had this realization lately of just how happy I am right here. Literally and metaphorically-speaking. I fear that we get so caught up in achieving the next greatest thing for ourselves that we forget what “here” even is. I’ve seen this with my running goals — how can I get faster? How can I get stronger? Or in business — where can I improve in my line of work? What services can I tap into next?

And the truth is, it’s never enough. You keep wanting more and more. And you fall into this cycle of seeking the next thing without realizing what you already have and what it took to get to where you are… now. Here. Currently.

I’ve seen this vicious cycle before in my dark years between high school, all throughout college, and the beginnings of New York City where the number on that scale was never enough. It told me what I was worth, day in and day out. And eventually I’d get to the number I wanted, only to anticipate it getting lower… and lower… it was never enough. And I think it’s a representation that we sadly see in many other aspects of our lives. What we have now… is never enough. Who we are now… is never enough. And it took me rekindling my relationship with God to break that toxic cycle. He saved my life.

Which brings me to… here.

Entering a new decade feels like starting a new chapter and I can’t help but feel this way. Maybe it’s the direction of where my life is going — new home, new city, year one of marriage. All big milestones that remind me how life is full of surprises — I anticipated my 30s to be much different than this growing up.

There’s so much to be grateful for and I thank God every day for this blessing of a life. I was in a broken place for so long, prior to moving to NYC 7 years ago. I chased perfection and looking a certain way, and it was never enough. Life with God continues to get better and more fulfilling in every aspect of life: running, my business, personal endeavors — I don’t ever want to experience life without Him, and thankfully I get to do it with my best friend by my side for the rest of my life.

My 20s were sweet, but I have a feeling my 30s will be sweeter. ☺️

I may be new to the Substack world, but I’m no stranger to blogging. In fact, it’s what got me started in social media back in 2010…

Stay tuned for the next post where I’ll rewind and share more of how I got started in this space.